I Have Changed

Hey NeverEver's!

It has been one of those weeks. Those type of weeks were the best intentions are just ignored and its really not external reasons...just the internal ones. Except for Monday, Monday the Family was here and we had to go celebrate Father's Day a little early.

Out of 3 days this week only 1 did I have my Shakeology for breakfast...HOWEVER, Out of 3 days 3 of them I did my Lunch Run! So, that is something that I am very happy about. I mean usually its the other way around and exercising is something that I need to do more of.

Today...however, was just where I wanted to stay in bed. It was warm, It was comfy and I just didn't want to move. But the idea of a paycheck motivated me to roll out of bed and get to work. It wasn't pretty but I made it to work on time. That is when it hit me that I forgot my shakeology.

So I was feeling pretty down and just not in the mood to workout or to do basically anything. Then I saw this...

Its a powerful message in the most normal situation and in the mood that I was in...well it was doubly powerful. It reminded me that I was tired of always making plans and then not going through with them. So I made myself think about the things that I have made my goals from the beginning of this Month and what I have been able to do 90% of the time.

• Make Dinner 5 nights of the week with leftovers for the Hubby -- Check!
• Workout with Slim in 6 in the morning -- Negative
• Do my Lunch Run -- Check!
• Workout with Hip Hop Ab's at night with the family -- Half / Half
• Have Shakeology for Breakfast -- Check!
• No more sweats -- Half / Half

I wrote this down and I looked at it really hard...while answering calls and doing my job of course!! And I found out that I wasn't doing to bad. 

I am cooking more dinners then ever, 

I am drinking my shakeology and notice a difference, 

I got the Hubby into working out with me...and even if I don't do the DVD's I make sure I am walking at night. 

So I don't wake up when I want to workout...maybe I need to change that goal to something else

So I am not always able to turn down that sweet. But I am turning them down now more then ever.

I am doing better then last year. I am doing better then 3 months ago. I am doing better then last month. 

However, that isn't even the biggest thing I discovered today. Yup there is something even bigger then me actually having more 'Checks' on my Goal List then 'Negatives'.

I look at this and still can't believe it. I have the proof in front of me. Showing me that my time is getting better. That my mile is getting faster and I am still at shock. Seriously my time at the beginning of the year was 18 minutes! 18 minutes to run a mile that I can now do in 12 minutes! 

My clothes may still be the same

My scale number may not have changed that much

My body may look the same

But running numbers don't lie. 

I have changed. 

So NeverEver's, I am heading to a shower and then bed...I did the night workout with the Hubby while writing this. I will see you all tomorrow! 

The Post that Almost Wasn't!

Hey NeverEver's,

I came home tired, I left work tired. To put it simply I was exhausted and in no mood to do anything more strenuous then eating some dinner. But let me start at the beginning.

This morning I was supposed to wake up 15 minutes early to meditate for the #elf4health challenge. So today of all mornings it was my duty as a challenge-ie to wake up early and to do my style of 'meditation'. Which is to think about things that have made me happy. Things that I am grateful for!

Well today of all days both me AND the Hubby sleep in. Yup even he didn't catch the alarm clock. I am thinking it was the weather. Anyways, it was a 'rush-rush-rush' just to get to work on time. But, I did have enough time to snag this!

Winter is coming late to So Cal. We still have the leaves on the tree & the ground. But it was a wonderful rainy day! This started to make things better. I love the rain and how fresh everything seems!

Made it to work with about 5 mins to spare. Really don't like cutting it that close at all! Happily I did have one thing waiting for me once I got there. Which made my morning that much better!

That's right Starbucks Christmas Blend coffee with a peach fruit cup and chex mix. This is the first time I have EVER had Chex Mix and I have to say that I liked it.

Wasn't all that happy with how messy it was at times, but the taste was good and it hit the spot for a girl who didn't have breakfast.

However, that is where it starts going down hill. Work was stressful and well that is enough said about that.

So once I got home I was exhausted. I had even posted

I gave myself a free pass not to do today. Not because I was away from the computer, not because I was sick...but because I was tired and didn't feel like it.

And I allowed myself to be okay with that. Not posting. Not doing my challenge exercise (challengeloop) and not doing my meditation (elf4health).

But then I started thinking. Wasn't this the same thing as giving myself a free pass to not workout? Wasn't this the same attitude that allowed me to have sweets and not in moderation? Wasn't it this attitude that I wanted to kick in the @ss?

After thinking about it I asked myself 2 questions.

1. Was I on the computer?  Answer - Yes
2. Was I about to fall asleep?  Answer - No

So why wasn't I writing my nightly post?

The answer was that I was allowing that 'attitude' that it was 'OKAY' not to do what I needed to do. That it was 'OKAY' not to work hard and keep at it.

Well it wasn't at all 'OKAY'. So I put down the computer and did my fitness challenge!

Then I made myself sit away from all the noise (hubby was playing BlackOp's) and the computer. I made myself sit down for 15 mins and think about what I was grateful for. I meditated!

And I found out that it was possible for me to sit quitely, by myself, for 15 mins and just...be happy. I didn't fall asleep...I didn't start thinking of all the things I needed to do. I just thought about things that made me happy.

Wanna know one of the top things that kept coming into my mind? I mean besides the Hubby!

The Blogging World. The people I have met while doing challenges, my readers, the exercises (that was a shocker), and the things I have seen this blog do!

So now I just had to write about it. But I still didn't want to share my weakness. I didn't want to share that this post almost wasn't. But I needed to. I needed to share with everyone...and especially myself that I can overcome that 'OKAY' attitude.

The post is almost at its end and I am so happy that I did it. I exercised, I meditated, and I overcame! 

Now it really is time for bed. Those Squats aren't getting any easier...or maybe I am still sore from the Burpee's.

So NeverEver's, How do you over come that 'OKAY' attitude? Especially, when you know that attitude isn't okay?